“The Impermanence of Human Sculptures,” by Tanaya Winder

The essential “arrangements”—

choose a coffin to keep her

 

protected from “the elements.” Given sufficient time

we rust like iron, disintegrate in the presence of air

 

moisture and water. The palpable aging of paper.

 

Do we all sleep like marble

statues, fixed points in a room

with locked expressions? Interpreting the abstract

 

space dangling between

waking and sleeping is

an obsessive repetition. Was it Eva Hesse

 

who explored the medium of art

fading over

time and wasn’t that part of what made it

 

beautiful? That’s what I still called my mother

post-mastectomy. Her single breast drooping,

a perfect display of three-dimensional

 

impermanence. A brave faced statue.

 

That’s how I like to think of it. No—

that thinking makes it bearable

 

when people ask: how

did it happen? She hanged herself, a lone

 

wire suspending her, delicately,

like wet paper molded into the exact shape

 

of emptiness. Unstable. Like a cloth-covered coffin,

left crumpling in the wind,

 

like paper. Or Eva. Dear Eva,

diagnosed with a brain tumor. Eva who died

in 1970. And mother who wrote a letter before

 

she died: keep it, safe—

 

as if the storage of places and names, as if

things and people, couldn’t

rust indistinguishably.

 

Printed with permission by Tanaya Winder, copyrighted by Tanaya Winder @ 2010.

Author: A Room of Her Own

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